The ending is only the beginning........

My journey seemed to have begun four years ago, yet upon looking back, that was actually the pivotal point of my journey.  It was then that a decision to take the risk and take the road unseen or the remain on the stagnant path I had been pursuing.  My world as I new it, as his other half, was closing in. I had seen the signs, yet the shock as the lies were unearthed before me, creating an oppressive emptiness. The reality of the finality was sinking in as fear came to forefront.  Fear of the unknown, the what ifs, how can I go on, what will happen if I confront this, how can I let this love go,  FEAR forever hoovering over me.  It was during this time of darkness, that God my Father, held me in the palm of his hand.  This didn't make the pain feel less than it was, but the knowledge that He was leading me on, kept me moving forward.

Even as I write today, I can feel the pain that I felt back then,  I no longer live in that pain, but I remember if only to be there for others.  To let just one person know that it's OK to feel it, we don't need to run away from the heartbreak, yet in this world are happy ever after, no one has taught us how to feel the heartache. If you are here right now, it you are feeling the despair of the heartbreak,  know that you will get through this.  It will hurt, but as days unfold before you, you will begin to see things differently.  You are loved and still lovable.  If you can not seem to accept that, then just accept that God made you.  He doesn't want you to hurt.  He is holding out his arms to you, so rest in them.